Crazy how it feels. How it feels how it feels to deal. With our own messes in which somehow we feel like protecting. I hate having to say sorry anytime. Yet it’s a crime to let stay afloat the steaming toad; hella ego overload, to think it’s acceptable. Yet it’s hard to place in someone else’s space and then come to grips. Why oh why…. No one even wants to reason right now. ( forget coddling).
At the moment, I’m hurting, yearning, but oddly enough composed enough to do some discerning. Heaven knows I’m learning…. ego is burning. Revealed shameful ways. Overindulged days. Crazy lazy hazy gaze.
Wanna move on….boy I’ve been mostly wrong. Funny how just now starting to see certain visions as blessings. All the times to myself I’ve been lying. We all in some firm or another play In our feelings. Attention seeking. Complaining about things ain’t easy. Indulging and reverting to 5, 6, 7, 8 year old….”my feelings are hurting.” Even with joshing around. An age old past time to gather and keep each other leveled but still it’s in jest and fun, even under the sun. Can’t even play, it’s gonna be ultra lame and insane when true assassins shoot to kill.
Deeper and deeper the rabbit hole goes. Gawking at people, lighthearted souls for a piece of their energy, that’s just cold. Because they make you feel like you’re a rebel and a rainbow and a star and the man, the leader of the band. Their posts, their words, look, panache. Cool, dope charisma having you curve and soothe to the knees and drop. Using these soulful people as a crutch is a crime, instead one should be learning to become one as well. Bitchy and bratty and all the way gross. Yeah man…with that!? Contentment? You’ll never be fulfilled….you feel super ill, you should…
At the moment, I’m hurting, yearning, but oddly enough composed enough to do some discerning. Heaven knows I’m learning…. ego is burning. Revealed shameful ways. Overindulged days. Crazy lazy hazy gaze.
Sometimes the world you created stinks; so you gotta hold your nose. Criticism, can be ugly but work with it and let the other parties know. Metamorphosis is true, not just Cordon Bleu. Messes and shame, comparisons to infants and tots and teens….oh man the flame. Many kiddos are super cool and let’s face it most of us are culprits in failure to rise. Self pity and asking for a space and other peeps to soothe… . While you need support.. giving in to self absorption is a trap, a prison. And the rabbit hole just gets deeper and deeper…until you just say let’s go…
At the moment, I’m hurting, yearning, but oddly enough composed enough to do some discerning. Heaven knows I’m learning…. ego is burning. Revealed shameful ways. Overindulged days. Crazy lazy hazy gaze.
At the moment, I’m hurting, yearning, but oddly enough composed enough to do some discerning. Heaven knows I’m learning…. ego is burning. Revealed shameful ways. Overindulged days. Crazy lazy hazy gaze.
Working on healing takes time, own the faults and frustration. And picture the reward. The time to come as a balance person with true Bleu friends and self assurance instead of a bloated ego. Letting all your teachers know you’re movin’ on from lessons long ago. Finally movin’ on from lessons long ago. Teacher, teacher, stinger and soother….thank you I’m movin’ on….finally movin’ on.
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